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致 : 一位困扰中的朋友 ♥

每个女孩其实都是个公主
公主天生就应该被疼爱
被父母捧在手中疼
被王子放在心里爱
但最重要的爱
其实是来自公主自己心里的

记得以前我总是埋怨别人对我不好
觉得全世界都抛弃了我
觉得所有人都亏欠了我
那时的我会告诉自己
别人对我越不好
我就要表现得越好
无论有多不高兴
我还是要在他们面前笑得没心没肺的
让他们知道没有了他们我依然可以过得很好

但到头来我做到的却是不停地折磨自己
每天晚上躲在房里一个人哭
忍着抽泣声、不敢哭得太大声
怕被隔壁房间的家人听到
哭累了就睡
天亮了就对着镜子
看着那个和我有着一模一样脸的人
笑着说我很好

有时候
我会趴在镜子前盯着自己
一分钟、两分钟
脑袋却是空空的什么都没想
然后渐渐地照镜子竟然成了一种习惯
开始会看着自己的脸自问自答
对着镜子挤眉弄眼的
有时看着自己的样子自恋地夸奖自己
有时严厉的警告镜中的自己什么该做什么不该做
有时伤心了就站在镜子前看着自己泪流满面的样子
哭完了就拍拍自己的脸告诉镜子里的自己我有多爱她

我发现照镜子真的很有催眠的作用
总觉得只要还有另一个像自己一样的人在身边就什么都不用怕了
因为只有自己不会抛弃自己
每次对着镜子告诉自己我有多好、有多么的优秀
久而久之就无法自拔地爱上自己了

哈哈哈...
其实写到这里我还是不知道自己到底要表达的是什么
乱七八糟的...
我觉得我是患上自恋症了
我想自己真的应该疼自己多一点
就把自己当成公主一样
虽然别人说的话有时会让自己耿耿于怀
但最后仔细想想
就算全世界都不认同我
我还有我自己
一个爱我的自己
似乎就够了...

- 韵 - ♥ M I C H E L L E
There's nothing wrong with my name.

If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.

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Fun to be with.
Loves to try new things.
Boy/girls LOVE you.
You are very hott.
Secretive.
Difficult to fathom and to be understood.
Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takesrep pride in oneself.
Has reputation.
Easily consoled.
Honest.
Concerned about people’s feelings.
Tactful.
Friendly.
Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Moody and easily hurt.
Witty and sparkly.
Spazzy at times.
Not revengeful.
Forgiving but never forgets.
Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Guides others physically and mentally.
Sensitive and forms impressions carefully.
Caring and loving.
Treats others equally.
Strong sense of sympathy.
Wary and sharp.
Judges people through observations.
Hardworking.
No difficulties in studying.
Loves to be alone.
Always broods about the past and the old friends.
Waits for friends.
Never looks for friends.
Not aggressive unless provoked.
Loves to be loved.
Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

Family
Relatives
Friends
The future 'SOMEONE'
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SHINee
Big Bang
K pop
Korea
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Korean dramas
Hong Kong dramas
Eat
Sing
Play
Sleep
Money
4 leaf clover
Doraemon

Being ignored
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Lizards

Wisdom, Knowledge & Talent.
Fame, Beauty & Fortune.
Grow taller.
Learn all the instruments I like.
Have a room full of instruments.
Renovate my bedroom.
Have a true friend.
Earn more money $.
Learn Korean language.
Trip to Korea with friends.
Be friends with handsome Korean guys.
Meet my idols.
Have a boyfriend who loves me more than anything.
Marry a man who loves and cares for me.

Have a great life

Nicole
Huey Ying
Hui Ling
Leslie
Cia Shien
Vivian
Kah Yan
Margaret
Wei Shiu
Wei Shiu & Margaret
Huey Yin
Pearly
Sin Yee
Hui Mi
Yan Rou
Khai Loong
Chun Yip
Andrew
Chia Bin

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